Knew tat he returned to singapore. Felt so excited and happy. But, why? I have nth to do with him anymore. Not anymore. Im such a failure. The fear comes back again. I wan to tell someone. But nobody knows how i feel. How am i gonna face him in school when school reopens? I dun even dare to look at him in the eye. I only can observe him at far away. I dunno wat to do now. I cant avoid him anymore. Tot tat i rly forgot everything bout him, tats not the case at all. Not at all. Is it infatuation? I dunno ;< Cant stand it anymore. Trying to indulge myself in movies. It just remove me out of my misery temporarily. It comes back afterall. Haiz.